What is my purpose in life? To contribute to society by making films. That is my sole purpose. I don’t want to move out. I know it’s dangerous and I also know that my dream told me I will shoot in danger. Meaning being in this apartment while I’m shooting. The film is saving me. There is mold behind the walls, but that was already there. The kitchen walls is with water, because of the leakage. I have searched for apartments, but no apartment is giving me perspective and the ones that I want, there is a huge waitlist. There is so much more that I can do and get everything out of this profession, so many things that I can achieve. So many possibilities. Yes, it’s a bit uncomfortable, but I’m okay with that. And I know in time, I’ll find something.
I look at what I can do, not at what my circumstances is. And actually my circumstances are amazing, I’m grateful that my parents are supporting me, investing in our dream, purpose. Because I know the reality. No one makes money out of this profession, not to make a living, just to make a name. Everybody has a side business, they have their own restaurant, own make up line.
I am an entrepreneur and with that I have to take risks, calculated of course, but taking risks is inevitable. It’s my destiny. Everybody in Holland wants to be in Los Angeles now, they want to try their luck out. They want it as well. Leaving their ‘comfortable life style’. A lot of people of who we know, want to meet us, people out of no where wants to meet and they did, just to get information. Where I thought they wanted to hang out with me. It’s okay, because it’s the same thing, if you don’t have a purpose. I have a purpose and I can realize it here. Nothing can stop me, its up to me. I trust God, I trust him, I continue and follow the path that God has for me.
Having a ‘secure’ job, or getting a business up and running in Amsterdam, is the same hustle like here. It’s all the same. Here it’s a bit different, you fall and get up again, people encourage you. 🙂 I love working for my own production company, I love making films, I cry when I see great artist performing on stage or screen, I want that too. Why should I settle? NO! I trust God’s timing. He has a set time.
I can always be ‘comfortable’, go back home. But I haven’t even tried to do all the things I want to do. There is so much more that I can still do. I will do it.
I have gotten ‘rest’ in Amsterdam, The Netherlands for 22 years, I know what that was like, I had my beautiful apartment, but regarding my dream it was limited. Following my purpose, has brought me here. I wanted this so much. If GOD has my back, then what is standing my way? Exactly nothing. It’s too late to go home, I’ve come too far to just turn my back. I’m going all the way, All IN!