How can I nurture myself more?

By creating something with quality, value will increase. Writing, cooking, creating, those things are fulfilling. I’m doing it with pleasure, without thinking about results. I don’t think about the end result. I’m just doing it.

I have always followed my instinct. But with my sister, she is an Aquarius, I get there. She completes it, she gets it done. My enthusiasm keeps our sister bond alive, it blooms, flourishes.

What’s the alternative of making other people important? Making myself important!

How can I make myself important?

Becoming full of myself, so full so I can give. How can I nurture myself more? Give to myself more?

By creating content that I would like to see, by being consistent. Consistency increases credibility. Simple.

Create first, the rest will follow

It is time to shine a bright light on myself. Meaning the stories I would like to tell, what i would like to see, I will focus on that.

My weakness is looking at others. Am I missing something? Do they have something interesting to say? Even when I think. ‘They might have tips’, it’s not my way, it’s their way.

I have to think or actually, rather be creative and take the steps of what I would like to do on a day to day basis. There is no shortcut in life. Now, I would like to make myself important.

Make my art important. Which I would like to make it accessible for everyone.

Truly anything is possible, if we’re open for the opportunities.

The exchange currency called money, is just a tool. Art is a priority. Create first, the rest will follow. Creating is the key to success. ‘No time to create, first I need to earn to pay etc.”.

Excuses, that pushes us further away from what is actually necessary: Creating. 

Consider it this way. If i’m a flower, in order to bloom, I need care, sunlight, water, air, love, so I can bloom in the most efficient way. I have to find ways to increase my platform. by taking care of my wants and needs.

Investing in health, has also become a huge priority in life. Health is wealth.

I live for art, art is gold. Holiday is also a tool, for rejuvenation.

Art is continues. It reminds us that we have a soul. Picasso, Leonardo Davinci, Disney, they created a legacy, something to look unto.

Life is not a rush

Good Afternoon,

As I’m sitting in front of the balcony, I can smell french toast. Delicious. Life is not a rush. T make things with quality, time is needed. And time is infinite. There is a huge misconception, that if i don’t act ‘fast’, other people will get it or the opportunity will be gone. How can I make in a rush good quality product? I am bringing value to people by making sure the quality is up to date for my audience, viewers.

Give a beautiful experience.

Also not every idea can be pearlized by me, although they sound great, doesn’t mean I have to realize it. I let go of many ideas and stick, commit to a few. Which ever is accessible. It’s all about simplicity. Simple, easy with a beautiful design.


Trust is treasure

Today I have realized what trust can do. What trust means. Trust that this path is the right path. I worked smart, not hard, so I got here pretty fast, at a very young age. Spirituality, silence makes me at peace.

I’ve been grown up with culinary food. A luxurious life style. Materialism is nice, it can be awesome and it is, but there is fine balance. Because it doesn’t make the heart happy at it’s core. What makes us happy is trust. Trust makes me do a lot of great things.

It’s a beautiful life. Time is infinite. There is no rush. Take it easy.

Cooking represents luxury. ‘There is no time to cook.’  I used to say that on a frequent basis, I though cooking is a waste of time. But cooking helped me feel relaxed, it puts me at ease.

I trust. period. Thank you God.

I am creating my own platform

Good Afternoon,

I woke up early at 9 am, to have a morning walk together with my sister. When I was walking outside I could see the beautiful scenery. I knew how fortunate and blessed I am. It was a gratitude walk.

I already have what I want. And invest in my art. When I was in Amsterdam I was earning a lot. I knew that I wasn’t growing. What I thought was a lot, I realized here in America, that knowledge and experience is priceless. Knowledge about Health, to have longevity, you can’t put a price on that.

Art reminds me that I have a soul. Art reminds me of the beauty in life.

There are platforms where I can show my art. It keeps me growing. My soul is fulfilled. I have an ability to touch a soul through my art. It is exceptional ad extraordinary. I couldn’t live just by earning, for the sake of earning, going on a holiday, then coming back to ‘home’, then earning, it’s a system. I want to live as if I’m on a holiday forever. And I am. This weather, it’s a blessing. I appreciate it. Everything.

I am creating my own platform. I am taking the steps. I am exactly where I’m meant to be. Exactly.

The beautiful flowers, palmtrees, it’s beautiful.

What I give to others, it comes back to me, so I give what I want to give

I’m creating, spreading love and kindness, that’s what I would like to get from the universe, so I give. Simple.

What I give, I get.

Real love, real life. And using my strong willpower, to live the life I want, which I have.

By doing, by actions. Digesting less media, exhaling more content, making more content, being more creative, that makes my soul happy.

The present is in my power. It’s in my power, I can enjoy now. Not when I have it, I already have it. I always had it.

Good night ❤

Believe in something big, Trust, this whole life is build on trust

Good Afternoon sunny berries,

Trust, this life is build on it. What would I do, if I had everything, I would enjoy life. I would live abundantly. It’s all a mindset.

I already have everything and all I can do is create. Create it, make magic happen.

I can’t wait for things to happen, I make it happen. It’s a trust. Also to enjoy life.

Life is meant to enjoy. Live life.

Doing my best without trying too hard. Just living life, is important.


You know what I’ve learned? That one thing doesn’t lead to the next, because God doesn’t bargain, he gives regardless

God doesn’t bargain. So it doesn’t work like that. If I do this then I will get that. No, it really doesn’t work like that. I’ve got an award, so now automatically work is going to come. or vice verse.

There is no right way, no straight way, it goes completely unexpected. If leisure presents itself now, or love presents itself now, it’s easy it’s accessible, or career, take it in the moment. Just go with the flow.

Everything is already determined. Everything. It’s set. It’s done.

It’s not up to me, I’m not doing it for myself, It’s selfless. By persevering, by doing what I’m meant to be, I’m giving hope, I’m radiating perspective, because I’m doing this. I crossed the ocean, to do this and God is helping.

God gives regardless. All I can do is take the steps, that’s it.

It’s Thursday, we’ll see, but all I can do is keep creating, keep giving.

With love

Hiking reminded me what the essence of life is

Good Evening stars,

I was mentally exhausted, thought to much. It was time, to go in nature and hike. Leave the ‘work’ behind and just be one with nature. I had to figure out why I am here in the first place.

I hiked and walked all the way to the top of the hill at runyon canyon. Before I arrived at the top, those 30 seconds prior to that was very painful. My legs hurt, it was only for 30 seconds, but I could have stopped and go back. I didn’t. I just persevered. I was happy that I did it. Because in that pain, I gained.

It reminded me of something. At that moment, I couldn’t analyze, contemplate, think of what the purpose is etc. At that moment there were to options, continue or go home. That’s it. Simple.

At the top, I closed my eyes and let the wind hug me. I felt a new energy coming to me.

Making deals, e-mailing, results, those things  really are mentally painful things to do, because I don’t have the response under control. I’m not creating there. But with sports, I have to exercise, I have to do it, some things I just have to do, without thinking. And sports remind me of that. An athlete mentality. Don’t think, do.

Very important. Do more, think less.

So I did. Which I’m doing now 🙂 Just keep doing it, keep sailing the boat. If I just keep at it, I might catch a big fish. Basic probability, I’m increasing my chances.

Have a beautiful night, sweet dreams 🙂

I’ll be honest, I’m overwhelmed at the moment


It’s Sunday 14th of May, I’ll be honest I’m overwhelmed. I’m digesting a lot of information, but not producing anything right now. I’m overwhelmed how people are moving ‘fast’, I mean it seems like that. Can I ever reach ‘there’? I know, God constantly shows me that I am already there, everything that I want is inside of me. Hmmm. Somehow I need to explore that. I do need a break and see what I am capable of. the past is gone, it’s a new day everyday. A new beginning.

Based on the past I can say that I am doing a great job, never thought I could reach this far. But to do more, seems a bit overwhelming and almost impossible. I takes step by step. But it seems so big right now. I don’t know where to start now. I can’t see it and I never can see it. The only thing I can do is moving forward.

I want a roadmap to success, so that I can see where I am going with this. America does make it possible.

I’m really stuck at this point, don’t know what to do and quite honestly never see the point of something. I analyze a lot. Somehow I got here, by doing, not thinking. It didn’t make any sense. It wasn’t logic, it was intuition. I followed that. Intuition doesn’t make sense at all.

My heart wants this more than anything in the world, but I also need a break……

I have to let go.