Tables can be turned instantly. Am I prepared to bow in order to rise?

God can truly turn things around in an instant. He truly can. It’s about the willingness to go 100 percent for any dream. Am I prepared to lose in order to win? Am I prepared to bow in order to rise? 

Things shift. Be a human, don’t forget where we came from. How far can I go, in a healthy way. I am an artist and I’m walking my path. Journey based. There is a reason for everything. By losing, we find new ways, better ways to win.

My focus is on myself now. Life taught me. Priorities. A beautiful home, cozy and luxurious apartment. Loving family, health. Health is wealth. I am a storyteller. A storyteller first. Things happen for a reason.

I’m grateful to God, I found my purpose.


Leave my mark on the next generation, my generation, it’s already happening. Something big is about to release.

Changing everything I know, history is gone, only present moment counts. Universe is behind me, I am more than a commercial tycoon. More than that, I am gifted and blessed by God, I trust HIM. I jump and the net does appear. It did and always will. Faithful with the gift I have.

I am an artist. That’s who I am. The door will open, it will happen, helping my next generation. Leave my mark on the next generation, my generation, it’s already happening. Something big is about to release.

Prove my faithfulness. Celebrate for everyone, give to everyone. Giving birth takes time, 9 months. Things take time, it’s normal.

Focus on the creation.

Sometimes there are no answers, just taking it step by step

Going into the unknown again, sometimes there are really no answers. I am just walking my path. Ofcourse there comes a time, when I want things fast, all at once. But apparently that’s not how life works. It’s not like a phone, like technology, that I can get things instantly. It doesn’t work like that.

Patience is a virtue. With love I understand, then I really want to take it nice and slow. With care.

I have to remind myself that this is a journey, never a destination. Only God is a destination.

I want to wake up at 6 am

Good Evening,

Hope you’re having a nice holiday cheer 🙂 I went to the Grove today, beautifully decorated as always and bought my favorite pastries. With two croissant and ate it with an omelette inside mmmm.

Very beautiful atmosphere and me and my sister also ate a delicious chocolate freeze.

Now when I came home, I was really happy. But then I didn’t have the energy to do other stuff.

I don’t know if it’s depression or not exercising. I eat healthy, organic food, make delicious recipes….hmm still fatigue?

But at least I went outside today, so that should have given me a boost to be awake? I also wake up in the morning around 7-7.30 am and then I see my sister, thinking why should I wake up? What’s there to do?

I really can’t think like that. I have a different morning routine. And my body is craving for exercise or doing something. Not just walking or lying around, but really something active.

I have to commit to it. I do have a beautiful and clean swimming pool at our apartment, so I would like to commit myself to swim in the early morning at 6am. It makes me active.

The trick is to not look at my sister and not think of but: ‘What’s next?’ After I have exercised, now what?’.

E-mailing company’s, getting deals done, it has been 11 months now. It’s just me, behind the computer.

I am creating with my sister. But again that’s a partnership. The only thing I can do by myself, without a computer, is hiking or swimming. At 6 am. Am I able to do so?

I find it so cold in the morning….

Oh God, I do feel that I have to do it. Otherwise, I feel such a waste. Wasting the mornings…..

I like mornings so much! It gives me such a pleasure, it makes me active and alert.

I surrender to my feelings now a lot, I want to be in charge again. Just do it.

Well, I am going to do it, period. But those thoughts will come and will try to defeat me: ‘Ohh look at my sister, so cozy sleeping, why do I want this? I can do it tomorrow….’  I keep putting it off.

NO! I don’t want to be like that, that is not me. I am in charge and I am someone who can make something out of nothing. That is my ability.

I have to fool myself into believing that I am doing if for something, a cool incentive. A holiday trip.

Oeh, okay, we’ll see, Happy Saturday 🙂

All I need is Pastries, art and Sunny California; absolute bliss

I couldn’t sleep. In the morning I felt so defeated. I felt I had no engine to persevere. I invested my own funds into fulfilling my dreams, my purpose, in art. In January I had high hopes, but things are still pending. I asked myself what would I do if everything is lost anyway? I would still complete my art, at least I have something to hold on to.

But then a few moments later, things started to get brighter. And I started to be pro active. Take action.

There is no straight line that goes from A to B, not in life, but that’s the beauty, art is born from there. It is born from imperfection, of being lost. In order to gain something profound, I must know what losing means. So I appreciate the things that I have, so my eyes are open to the gifts that I do have in life.

Then finally after two weeks I was able to satisfy my desires. Eating luxurious and more importantly delicious pastries. I walked with my sister to the park and ate my macaroons. Pistachio macaroon, it was absolute bliss. Combined with nature’s tranquility. Beautiful. It gave me back my trust. I can’t deprive myself from these simple pleasures.

This is absolute bliss.

Having my macaroons, art and living in sunny LA, for me that is absolute bliss. Having my sister with me and supporting parents. I couldn’t ask for more. I am going with the flow. 🙂

Creativity is flowing

I can’t even express how happy I am of how my journey is going. The fact that I can go outside, sunny weather, beautiful view, I immediately see the mountains, it’s absolutely amazing and breathtaking. This is perspective. Truly, every year seems an amazing year. It is going exactly the way it’s supposed to be. Glorious and magical.

I’m grateful for this pace and for this life. Tasty and beautiful food, great perspective, things to look out for, but more importantly, my present is truly a gift.

Having said that, it absolutely is not as easy as it looks to just create and follow my intuition. But if I have to choose, temporary pain, permanent pleasure or vice versa. Of course I choose the first one. Once I unravel the magic, creativity is flowing.

Beautiful things are happening and no I don’t physically see it, if the focus is on results. Simply because that is absolutely not what it is about. It is about taking actions. Forget about the rest, just step by step, baby step actions.

I love to give myself the best and I’m also blessed to have loving people around me.


Good night, God bless

Letting everything go, Starting again tomorrow. All is well.

Good Evening my chocolates,

What a day today. I prepared a lamb curry dish, marinated the lamb, first time to make this dish. Made some vital errors, however it was still very tasty and tender. Fried it for 5 minutes in the pan with some Indian Spices, I put it in the oven for an hour and 15 minutes, quite delicious for the first time.

That’s the best way to learn. The dish is for two days, so I don’t have to cook extensively tomorrow.

So tomorrow I can focus on creating. I’m craving for something sweet now mmm.

Letting everything go, Starting again tomorrow. All is well.

God bless, have a beautiful night 🙂

It’s timing, wait for the right person

Good Evening lovely chocolates,

One thing I have realized after watching an amazing film called: ‘The Terminal’, is to have patience. Wait, waiting can actually be worthwhile. I’m waiting for the right person to say yes. The right person with compassion can help. That person can turn the switch, can ‘override’.

Sometimes I have to wait longer, to get the right person. It all depends on that. Know who to speak to. Always go for passion first, creativity first.

While I am waiting, I am creating ofcourse. Creating doesn’t stop, I’m flowing and glowing. There is no green signal that tells me to create, I just start, out of nothing, something can be created.

Define Persistence. To me it means, keep going forward, but if one thing doesn’t work, I’ll try a new approach. It’s persistence combined with basic probability.

There are more ways that lead to Rome 😉

Have a wonderful night 🙂

I’ve been reminded again that truly Things can be achieved from nothing to something, with the right intention

God threw a small brick to remind me again:

I’ve been reminded again that truly Things can be achieved from nothing to something, with the right intention.

It is in the doing that things come alive, from nothing, I create. Create out of nothing, that is art. 

Trust, there is a God, he truly has my back, trust in the universe, There is something working for us, a force to make this happen, a reality.

What you put in, you get out. Quality is being put in, so that is being presented. Peace and harmony in house, that is what will be forwarded.

I get what I bring about, awesome 🙂

This is life, I’m tasting it again. The joy, wonder and excitement.

I’m filled with joy, wonder and excitement. One thing I’ve learned from this journey, this life is that planning doesn’t work. No need to! Because God has a better plan, a more amazing plan.

I’m so blessed to have companionship with my sister. She is my right hand, I like doing groceries together, watching films together, working on our arts and crafts together, oh that’s all I’ve ever wanted. Because together there is more fun!

God reminded me to remember who I am again, by throwing a small brick. That’s okay, I’m glad it happened. Because I’m truly blessed and privileged.

There is some work to do, creative work, I work for what I want. ❤

Letting everything else go, the desires, the planning, just focusing on the work, because there truly is a bigger purpose here. Something big, beyond the universe.

So it’s okay, it keeps me going, it gives me drive. Focusing solely on the work, regardless of anything, with or without, I’m grateful for this life, thank you 🙂

Happy Holidays!