Hope you’re having a nice holiday cheer 🙂 I went to the Grove today, beautifully decorated as always and bought my favorite pastries. With two croissant and ate it with an omelette inside mmmm.
Very beautiful atmosphere and me and my sister also ate a delicious chocolate freeze.
Now when I came home, I was really happy. But then I didn’t have the energy to do other stuff.
I don’t know if it’s depression or not exercising. I eat healthy, organic food, make delicious recipes….hmm still fatigue?
But at least I went outside today, so that should have given me a boost to be awake? I also wake up in the morning around 7-7.30 am and then I see my sister, thinking why should I wake up? What’s there to do?
I really can’t think like that. I have a different morning routine. And my body is craving for exercise or doing something. Not just walking or lying around, but really something active.
I have to commit to it. I do have a beautiful and clean swimming pool at our apartment, so I would like to commit myself to swim in the early morning at 6am. It makes me active.
The trick is to not look at my sister and not think of but: ‘What’s next?’ After I have exercised, now what?’.
E-mailing company’s, getting deals done, it has been 11 months now. It’s just me, behind the computer.
I am creating with my sister. But again that’s a partnership. The only thing I can do by myself, without a computer, is hiking or swimming. At 6 am. Am I able to do so?
I find it so cold in the morning….
Oh God, I do feel that I have to do it. Otherwise, I feel such a waste. Wasting the mornings…..
I like mornings so much! It gives me such a pleasure, it makes me active and alert.
I surrender to my feelings now a lot, I want to be in charge again. Just do it.
Well, I am going to do it, period. But those thoughts will come and will try to defeat me: ‘Ohh look at my sister, so cozy sleeping, why do I want this? I can do it tomorrow….’ I keep putting it off.
NO! I don’t want to be like that, that is not me. I am in charge and I am someone who can make something out of nothing. That is my ability.
I have to fool myself into believing that I am doing if for something, a cool incentive. A holiday trip.
Oeh, okay, we’ll see, Happy Saturday 🙂