I would like to say certain things to you which I can’t verbally, so I hope you will understand when I’m writing this to you:
You run after people who never give you acknowledgement and neglect those who truly respects you. For example: Everyone at your work is dying for your new recipe, they love your cooking, one of the world’s leading company and CEO has given YOU acknowledgement, but instead you are investing time and running after those who don’t care.
You have two beautiful well mannered, intelligent daughters who are pursuing their dreams at the entertainment capitol of the WORLD, but again you are running after people who don’t ever utter these words that your good.
You have a friend/husband who you can call 24/7 who is a great dad for your children, you have seen the world with that person, you can laugh with that person and he always says how beautiful you are and you have a beautiful skin color, beautiful figure, but AGAIN you are running after people who never acknowledged you.
Whatever someones decision is, whether that person wants to give you less and the other more, YOU have NO right to say: ‘but why does person x get more and always gets more and I don’t’. That is not up to YOU to ask that, that is kismet and than your basically asking GOD/UNIVERSE that all the blessings you got is nothing, because you want to have what the other has. STOP COMPARING. AND START COUNTING your OWN BLESSINGS.
With all do respect but you are being ungrateful. You often say that to me, when I am only focusing on the ‘bad’ side of things, while I have so many Good things in my life. It is TIME that you need to count YOUR BLESSINGS.
AND I will tell you what you told ME: if you keep going after those people and you keep asking for their approval than at the end with a lot of pain you will be granted your wish. But keep in mind that the chance of getting yourself back together and that people at work wants to see YOUR recipes will STOP and those blessings that you were supposed to get will go to someone else, because you decided to go against your destiny. You will regret it after you have ‘received’ your wish. And you will realize that what you wanted was NOT what you needed.
Also I would like to say at last. You are asking to do the IMPOSSIBLE, which is making someone to give you acknowledgement, you are ASKING to CHANGE the person and you have tried it for so many years. You can keep trying dear, but by doing this Impossible act, you will make EVERYTHING else NOT possible.
You are not giving up, you are letting go. Focus on your own journey, count your own blessings, than you will see wonders. Can it really be that simple? Yes, it all starts by shifting your focus which you kept postponing for 50 years, start with what YOU want. Everybody has their own goal, own family, start focusing on YOU. And they will come back. They always come back, but do you still want it then?
It’s in your hands. You can keep holding on of what you have been doing for so long or you can make a change, right here right now, decision is yours.