And I love the fact that I can say it’s destiny.

Hi moonlight, I received the card of Lilly Ashwelle, ‘Destined to have’. And that gives me relieve. I also did a meditation and I could hug him. And I love the fact that I can say it’s destiny. It’s not up to me. Because I am not god, it’s the divine, it’s bholenath. love is…

I guess I am not allowed to control change, it’s not natural, Instead I allow the change to happen naturally.

Hello gorgeous, Letting it happen instead of making it happen. I don’t feel it, so I let it come to me. What I am practicing is trust and surrender. I allow it to happen, this is soooo hard. I always do do do do. If I want something magical to happen, I have to allow…

Where there is chai, there is hope

Hi moonlight, Wouldn’t it be amazing to open my own chai/tea cafe. Moonlight’s tea cafe. Chandni’s tea cafe. Or how about Chandni’s cream tea cafe, or Angie’s cream tea cafe. Something to think about, something for the future. Anyway Autumn is arriving and I am gaining inspiration for a new beginning. I don’t want to…

Peace and harmony is inside of me, happiness is inside of me and I will never let that take away from me, never!

Hi moonlight, I am so done. I cannot do this to myself anymore, it’s soul destruction. I am releasing it, this is the final part of the chapter, surrender and release. I don’t want a relationship anymore, it’s been decades and I realise that the perfect soulmate is in my head and it will never…

This is for me, not for him or for someone else. This is my faith in Bholenath.

Mere jaan, I know you’re coming back, I have never written this. I’ve only written that I love you, or that we cannot be together, or if it’s destiny we will meet again. But I have never written that you will come back to me. That the distance between us will be less. I went…