Look, I always wanted to be an entrepreneur, have my own business. I never thought it would be in the film business. I always thought I would just land a role. Well, most of the actors, I think thought that way, because of the illusion that the press presented in the first place.
Rocky, was made by Sylvester Stallone himself, he wrote and produced it himself. He put himself on the map. So did many others. I have a gift of producing and I knew that the only way I can put myself on the map is by producing films myself and casting myself as the lead. My sister happens to love directing and knows my angles and knows how to put me on camera. In such a way, that I never thought I could do.
In Europe they would ask: ‘That sounds all fine honey, but are you earning?’ I am earning through my commercials and I am using that capital to invest in my production company. If I would think about revenue, then Disney could have stopped. Watch ‘Walt before Mickey’ and you’ll understand what I mean🙂 He got so many times bankrupt, couldn’t pay his employees, did get deals, then lost them, but he still continued.
If I want ‘direct result’, I can just get a ‘regular’ job and that will give me direct result, I work and after that I get paid. Period.
Also for 1.5 years, I had to work just to pay for my rent, month to month, only concerned about that. I took a risk, to go more for auditions, work for what I want, shoot things myself and things started to shift around. After that period, suddenly my dad’s business got picked up and is happily supporting me and my sister in pursuing my dream. Which means I work now for my company.
We are getting sponsorships, so we can continue making films. Our work is speaking. I am playing with the cards that are given to me and the gift that I am getting from the Universe, God, I will appreciate it and take it🙂
I am building myself up, as I have given an opportunity to do what I love. I have to go with time and what it presents to me.
I have learned to not anticipate on the bad things. If something will happen, I can’t stop from happening, but at least I can work for what I want, put my time and energy in what I love. My mom used to tell me: ‘But what if your dad cannot support you anymore, you need to have something’. Well I have been in that position and I could swim, but to anticipate on it prior, I mean, then I can just go on the ‘safe’ road, quit this passion, get a ‘regular’ job, just to be safe. But playing safe, is also not a guarantee. And every time when my mom is scared or talks about that ‘safe’ route, it gives me even more the push to take risks and pursue my dream. Because NOTHING is certain. Only the end is certain.
I can’t live life being scared of things that potentially will happen. Well let it happen, I’m going to focus on what I want, ignore the distractions.
Everybody is entitled to live their life the way they want to. I am doing the same. I am not questing my cards of life, I work with it. I play with it and the rest is in hands of GOD. I cannot ask, why I don’t have this or why this or that, I am not God, nor do I want to be. I am just a human being. I make mistakes and I also make great choices. I am both the good and the bad. I am in this world and I can only do my best. But I’m doing something that makes me a life. Which is my film, my love❤