By being sick for a day, I realized that I I have to rest and take my time.

At 8.30am I went for a nice cold swim. What a beautiful life. I can swim anytime. I love it. I’m very grateful for this life.

I am a camel and I realize it to the core. I’m taking taking my time. It’s not about being the first, it’s about doing my best and do everything with quality, to the best of my ability. It’s very important to experience life and to focus on my journey.

Yesterday, I had a fever, didn’t feel well, I had a headache. I realized at that moment, that I have to rest and take my time to do everything. I can’t do everything all once. quality takes time, I’m okay with that. Quite frankly, the past is gone, the future is not in my hands, the present is all I have.

There are a lot of things I would like to do, a lot of things I would like to achieve, but it can be too overwhelming. I’m taking my time, the rest I leave up to God.

Success or failure is subjective. What matters is what’s happening inside.

Thank you God for everything, for this journey, for bringing me in a country with like minded people. I realize what success truly is. Success or failure is subjective. In society’s standard it means the more of the green stuff, big car, big house, which is fine and beautiful, but it’s a tool, not a destination.

Nevertheless, what matters is what goes inside of us, what is happening inside. Am I happy or do I feel as if I’m living in a routine. I followed my intuition and inside I’m happy. Of course I’m happy that I’m back in a luxurious apartment with tranquility.

I’m happy that I can focus on my creativity and art and more importantly I can rest.

Getting up early, Creating, gives perspective to life

Hi lovely cherries,

This whole week I’ve been up on my feet, getting up early, creating, shooting my own promos, hosting my own show.

I’m becoming the instrument of the creator.

There is no point in asking, ‘what’s the point of getting up early, what’s the point of this and that’. If I ask that, I might as well give up life, because I don’t know, does anyone ever know what will become of them? I think that is what life is all about. Not knowing, just doing.

Getting up early, greeting nature, before I do anything else, makes me realize why it’s worth it. I greet God that way and when I go to sleep, I pray. It gives me peace and trust in the universe.

It doesn’t matter what I like, I might get those things, and get everything but still have nothing. I am grateful that I surrendered, put my ego away and went with God. Because internally I finally can say that I have everything.

Thank God, my eyes are open, I can see.

It doesn’t matter what I think, it’s all about the actions. Doing things, even when I’m making mistakes, that’s great, it means I’m doing something, I’m learning.

Everything is already in me, whenever I take the actions, I can see. Whenever I am selfless, I can see. By I can see I mean that I see what God’s intention is for me.

It’s all about choices. Talent lies in choices.

Foundation should be build with quality, once that is build there is no looking back, God has got my back now.

Good Morning,

This is a letter to my mom, I can’t say it in real life, I’ve tried, but she is not listening or perhaps doesn’t understand. I have to let it out somewhere, so this letter is brutally honest of what I think and I would like to say, which I don’t dare in real life.

“Dear Mom,

Being creative doesn’t mean money. Of course I love the luxury, but I already have that in my life, I’m living in Los Angeles, the entertainment capitol of the world, surrounded with palm trees and sunny weather. I love this life.

Unfortunately, you are not able to see the beauty. Every time when you come here, you’re not present. There were bits and pieces that you let me realize how powerful I am, when you were here, but that goes away when you’re trying to control everything.

The concept of money is also being misinterpreted. It is a tool, made by the system, to get products, travel and all the things we would like. In essence it is paper. I am choosing my time, to spend it wisely and being creative.

Smart work, is better than hard work. I’ve listened to you, because I respect you as a mother and three years ago you were financing my study. I listened and lost everything.

Now my dad is investing in our company, in our creativity. He understands that it takes time to build up a company, to build up a name, especially with integrity. Quality takes time.

It is unfortunate that you look to other people mom and don’t realize your own blessings. Perhaps you claim it, but you’re constantly checking people out on what’s app, I mean honestly there are better ways to spend your time. I’m not judging, but don’t compare. Going out clubbing with someone who has a porsche, looking at that person thinking, ‘how come they have it and I don’t’, is not a great metaphor to live life. I mean she is going out clubbing, no judgement, but usually that is done when we don’t want to hear out inside voice and occupy it with outside noise.

And then, you have the capacity to help us, you want to help us, because you did it, but you are questioning and take my whole confidence away.

No, I don’t want to create a family of my own, that typical picture, husband, children etc. I have my own family already, my parents and my sister. Why in the world would you take that away? Because you are surrounding yourself with those people.

You said that you always wanted to go to a foreign country and visit your children there. Well, we are here, not in a small city, but Los Angeles, what is your problem?

Seriously, dad is normal and loyal, he has ambition, but somehow you’re not accepting the easy approach of life: just being. Let it happen. What will happen, will happen and cannot be stopped from happening.

This is destiny. I like to provide for people in a large way with my creativity. I like that. This is what I love.

I respect myself as an artist and I’m not defined by the numbers. That is the old way of thinking, this is the new generation. You can sell things for money, anything, no, integrity is important, even when it means starting from scratch. I’m saying it, because I have done it.

Foundation should be build with quality, once that is build there is no looking back, God has got my back now. Amen

Appreciate tranquility

Perhaps the turbulence in my life was to teach me, to appreciate tranquility. Appreciate going with the flow. Investing in myself, my health. I have a very peaceful life, with culinary food.

Everything is fine, it’s all good. every experience, all comes down to the same thing: peace. Doing the work, create, all with patience, love and care.

I never stopped. I always did something. I always kept going. In that, I was persistent. This is not my masterplan, this is the plan of God.

It is all about taking initiative. Creating, that is the centerpiece.

Clutter free, that’s what I’m looking for. I just went outside, to walk in nature. I realized that I’m already there, where I wanted to be. I’ve arrived. The view, the palmtrees. I just have to remind myself my eyes that I already have everything and appreciate nature.

I constantly looked at the screen. Trying to find something. Watched movies, interviews, magazines. I’m fed up digesting information. I want to create. It’s really that simple. Create. Doing the work, make my art.

One might ask, what’s the purpose of getting up early, what’s the purpose of going outside. I used to ask that on a frequent basis, especially in high school. After that period I started my life. I’m living the life.

Everything works counter intuitive. Logic says what’s the point of walking in nature. There is. It reminds me why I’m here, how far I’ve come, it gives me strength. Even when it means for half n hour or fifteen minutes, it works wonders.

I used to go to a lof of events, workshops, free festivals, all for networking. With some, I learned something, but most of the time, it was clutter. It’s been 5.5 years since I’ve been living here. I know now why those events are free. Marketing. It’s okay, I’ve gained experience, but it shouldn’t be in expense of my focus. There are so many ways that lead to Rome. Everybody has their own way. I have my own, with simplicity.

Giving art, making ,creating art is so important. A gift that needs to be shared. It is all about taking initiative. Creating, that is the centerpiece.

 

How can I nurture myself more?

By creating something with quality, value will increase. Writing, cooking, creating, those things are fulfilling. I’m doing it with pleasure, without thinking about results. I don’t think about the end result. I’m just doing it.

I have always followed my instinct. But with my sister, she is an Aquarius, I get there. She completes it, she gets it done. My enthusiasm keeps our sister bond alive, it blooms, flourishes.

What’s the alternative of making other people important? Making myself important!

How can I make myself important?

Becoming full of myself, so full so I can give. How can I nurture myself more? Give to myself more?

By creating content that I would like to see, by being consistent. Consistency increases credibility. Simple.

Create first, the rest will follow

It is time to shine a bright light on myself. Meaning the stories I would like to tell, what i would like to see, I will focus on that.

My weakness is looking at others. Am I missing something? Do they have something interesting to say? Even when I think. ‘They might have tips’, it’s not my way, it’s their way.

I have to think or actually, rather be creative and take the steps of what I would like to do on a day to day basis. There is no shortcut in life. Now, I would like to make myself important.

Make my art important. Which I would like to make it accessible for everyone.

Truly anything is possible, if we’re open for the opportunities.

The exchange currency called money, is just a tool. Art is a priority. Create first, the rest will follow. Creating is the key to success. ‘No time to create, first I need to earn to pay etc.”.

Excuses, that pushes us further away from what is actually necessary: Creating. 

Consider it this way. If i’m a flower, in order to bloom, I need care, sunlight, water, air, love, so I can bloom in the most efficient way. I have to find ways to increase my platform. by taking care of my wants and needs.

Investing in health, has also become a huge priority in life. Health is wealth.

I live for art, art is gold. Holiday is also a tool, for rejuvenation.

Art is continues. It reminds us that we have a soul. Picasso, Leonardo Davinci, Disney, they created a legacy, something to look unto.

Life is not a rush

Good Afternoon,

As I’m sitting in front of the balcony, I can smell french toast. Delicious. Life is not a rush. T make things with quality, time is needed. And time is infinite. There is a huge misconception, that if i don’t act ‘fast’, other people will get it or the opportunity will be gone. How can I make in a rush good quality product? I am bringing value to people by making sure the quality is up to date for my audience, viewers.

Give a beautiful experience.

Also not every idea can be pearlized by me, although they sound great, doesn’t mean I have to realize it. I let go of many ideas and stick, commit to a few. Which ever is accessible. It’s all about simplicity. Simple, easy with a beautiful design.

 

Trust is treasure

Today I have realized what trust can do. What trust means. Trust that this path is the right path. I worked smart, not hard, so I got here pretty fast, at a very young age. Spirituality, silence makes me at peace.

I’ve been grown up with culinary food. A luxurious life style. Materialism is nice, it can be awesome and it is, but there is fine balance. Because it doesn’t make the heart happy at it’s core. What makes us happy is trust. Trust makes me do a lot of great things.

It’s a beautiful life. Time is infinite. There is no rush. Take it easy.

Cooking represents luxury. ‘There is no time to cook.’  I used to say that on a frequent basis, I though cooking is a waste of time. But cooking helped me feel relaxed, it puts me at ease.

I trust. period. Thank you God.