Something new, special is on it’s way!

What a love. This day is beautiful, soft and lovely. Going with the flow, trusting God. It takes faith and courage.

I am developing another characteristic, to be more objective. And putting more energy in what I want, not in what I don’t want.

It’s truly putting things in perspective. Recalculating and living your life, day by day, moment to moment.

I understand my parents now, I am now walking my path. Leading by example. I was welcomed with a beautiful sky. The sky was blue, with beautiful white fluffy clouds. Similar to Pixar movies, beautiful!

Keep going, trust in God, something beautiful is on it’s way.

No more grudges, this is a new day, new life, new beginnings. Something new, special is on it’s way.

Love starts from within, sprinkle it everywhere, love and kindness.

Things are turning around, the Universe is rising up above the circumstances. It’s going to happen.

Happy Valentine’s day! ๐Ÿ™‚




What my father couldn’t complete, what my mother couldn’t do, my sister and me are going to fulfill it.

I am so done with those people who were trying to come in our lives as friends and then they were only there to pull me down. It’s so done. Why do I care? Because my mother cares. I want to let it all go. I want to move on with my life and truly let the past go. I don’t know them. Why do I care and why is there still an emotion attached to it. She always favored those people. I wished that those people were never in my life. Having said that, honestly those same people are that very thing, why ย I am still here, truly there is no turning back. There is nothing to go back to. All of this with my mom, I had to go out of that. And go forward.

If it wasn’t for my sister, I would have never go forward. I’m still in revenge mode for my father. Everything that he has been through and he was silent, I am still fighting the war. Perhaps unconsciously for my mother too. From the environment she came from, put down all the time, I’m their revenge, I have to be successful, and not the typical success. It’s more than that. It’s so much more than that.

I am here to spread my name everywhere, so success is so evident. What my father couldn’t complete, what my mother couldn’t do, my sister and me are going to fulfill it. It doesn’t matter when, because time is infinite, but it has to happen.ย 

I am silent, very silent, but my sister is working towards something big and I’m here to get there. We will get there.

I have to learn something here. Enough is Enough. Their pride, going over us, going over my parents, enough is enough. I am silent, but soon my work will speak. That is up to God. He has put me on hold right now. Patiently I am going forward. It will happen and it cannot be stopped from happening.

Those people have absolutely no manners and my mother has been affected completely, thinking that they are indeed superior. Enough is enough. I am not talking with my mom right now, because she is in their hands still and it seems like she never wants to go out of it. If she cannot see my blessings, then at this time there is no time to talk. I absolutely don’t have to justify myself for the actions I am taking. But I am done with all of them.

I am here in Los Angeles, living here for 6 years now, going into the 7th year. I have acquired so much knowledge, I will blast it in success, with God’s timing.

I am silent, but not inside. It’s already setup.

And Thank You for those, who put me and my parents down, you are fueling so much energy and fire inside of me, I will do anything in my power to make it happen.

My soul’s mission has not been completed. I’m still on it. With love and care, with patience and silence.ย 


I chose self growth over materialism and this is what it brought me.

Every No, Setback, or Delay, is another opportunity to expand my knowledge. This is what I’ve seen. So in the short term, it seems thatย  I have nothing, or I have ‘lost’ everything, but honestly that is not true. In the long term I have acquired so much knowledge, that I am able to make 100x more then I did before.

This knowledge that I have acquired, cannot be counted in money. It is so much more than that. I have become enlightened.

To put it in perspective, I had a big house, cars, unlimited amount of holidays in Amsterdam. Which by the way was my parents fortune ๐Ÿ™‚ Left it all behind in 2011 for self growth. So in 2013, based on social influences and circumstances, I started to wonder if it is all worth it. Was it worth it, I am not ‘popular’ at least I can’t taste it and can’t ‘show’ to the people who put me down, how much I’ve acquired. I was 0 on the radar of materialism.ย  I lived on a budget and lived in a small studio apartment together with my sister. Outside perhaps 0, but inside what a power, which was about to be unleashed.

Still, everyday I questioned everything. What was I thinking? This journey is truly not for the fainthearted. But my spirit animal is a Lion. So I was bound to overcome my challenges. Spiritually I knew that this is just a task I have to go through.

I persevered, then 2015 happened. The year I vowed to become closer to myself. Closer to God. I shook hands with my Destiny and things started to shift, tables started to turn. It became visible. My power from inside which was growing became visible on the outside.

Today I am in a beautiful apartment. But ofcourse I will never forget the other apartment, it was thanks to that blessed apartment that I have received immense growth, it’s the reason for my present success. If it wasn’t for that period, I wouldn’t be here. It would have been to easy and I would still be the same person.

I have more purchasing power, but more importantly I am able to invest in something bigger, something that me and my sister have envisioned.

Materialism becomes small when it comes to self growth. To each it’s own. Understand this, when I had materialism I was being judged of being ‘privileged’, and going for my dream, I’m still being judged. Meaning, I can never please someone.

I am absolutely happy with what I have, self growth has already gathered me everything what I wanted financially. Living at the most expensive city in the world, I am grateful for this.

I also realize, it’s that I have everything, I should be humble. So I am slowly going on the path of being humble more and more. The need of showing disappears, because God has granted me everything. And the brain he bestowed on me, can be used for something bigger. Connected with the universe. Amen.

My new intention for 2018: Recharge

Hi my beautiful rose petals,

Last year, I wanted to recharge, but I felt I wasn’t allowed, I have to keep going, keep working, keep finding new Business solutions. I never stopped. It was 7 years ago, that I recharged completely. Now 7 years later, it’s time to recharge, mentally, physically and emotionally. Yes, on all levels.

That means, if people ‘get ahead’ or people are thriving, it’s okay. Because I have a strong intention for this year, so I am going all the way. By saying that I’m going all the way, I am actually very content. So actually I have become indifferent towards other people’s action. That has nothing to do with me. I am focusing on what works for me.

I feel good, I feel relaxed and more importantly I feel content. It’s a good place to be in. I am eating delicious food and taking it from moment to moment.

I can’t plan ahead, that doesn’t work. But what I can do is live each moment, completely.

I have worked non stop for 7 years, this is the year to completely recharge and take time off. Taking time off from everything. Just indulging in food.

What a relief. Hope you have a beautiful evening. Health is wealth, new beginnings. ๐Ÿ™‚

It’s all about going forward.

If God put you in it, he knows that I can go through it. Yes, I can. Powers are revealed. I stepped in the pool of going forward. We keep going forward. A thriving team gives longevity.

It doesn’t matter how many things are thrown at me, how many thoughts of the past try to pull me down, I have to remember one thing: Keep going forward.

And yes, everything does depend on our reaction. Just stay objective, no opinion on it, no judgement on it. God has a plan, let it happen.

Human beings think in years, God thinks in life times, beyond that.

Time is infinite. We are spiritual human beings, there is an intuition guiding me profoundly. That’s what I’m listening at.

Where do I want to be spiritually, mentally? Peace and harmony, then that’s how I am going to act. My actions make my future, my actions are shaping my destiny.

It’s all about coming to realizations, that propels me to go forward.

I am going forward, no matter what stands in the way, I keep going forward. In God we trust. Amen.

A New Year has begun!

Good Evening lovely people,

My New Year has begun as of today, what a celebration, kicking it off magically. Have faith and trust, things will unfold.

Things happen for a reason. Just taking it step by step, I am so glad that I live in Los Angeles, California.

Opportunities are endless, amazing energy, I feel alive! Woohoo!!

Yes Los Angeles, I love you, still love you, there is magic in California.

Thank you, I love the people, I love nature, I love the palm trees and I love the mountains.

Amen. Thank you God for this life. Thank you so much!

I cannot break the ceiling all at once. It takes one step at a time. I have to get there first.

In order to beat the system, I have to humble myself. So the system cannot get to me. Every one is facing hardships in there own way. Some in health department, some in financial department, some in relationship department, the key is to humble myself, see reality as it is, and move on.

Going forward.

It is what it is.

What do I have?

I do have my health, my parents and my sister. I do have my art, electric and amazing place to stay at.

Right now being challenged with hunger, but it’s okay. A new day is going to come.

Even in school, I had to get deadlines, I stalled eating to meat deadlines…

It’s okay, this system is here, it exists, trying to make us obedient. I cannot break the ceiling all at once. It takes one step at a time. I have to get there first.

Following intuition above date

It is absolutely imperative to use intuition above data. Ofcourse, one needs to recognize what intuition is. Is it the inner voice, or voice of society?

I’ve been practicing to follow my intuition for a long time now. It often doesn’t seem logical, but I am trusting it. Because somehow my intuition always was correct. If I look back, I can say for certain, that my intuition is accurate.

In addition to that, when the intention is clear, the action is clear. My intention is to be committed, finish what I’ve started. And I am just getting started. It might have been 6 years into this journey of creativity, but truly my engine is just starting. I needed that 6 years, to build up experience. It’s not that I haven’t tried, I’ve tried many things, regardless of the magnificent results I have received, I am still learning. One can truly not know enough.

Having said that, I always jump before I see the net. That takes incredible amount of courage, because I am dealing with fear here. I do it anyway. How? I truly don’t think, when I need to jump and I see, there is absolutely no other way, I just do it. Somehow, when I do it, the net appears.

Past data shows how to do a certain thing, there is a whole blue print of other people’s success. But the thing is: one size does not fit all. It all depends on the individual person. It’s about recalculating constantly. That’s okay, that’s part of life. It’s not linear, it can go up and down.

Because in recalculation, there is a consistency, which I have tapped into. What is constant, is my commitment. I am committed to my essence. Happiness and kindness, being playful and full of life, regardless of circumstance. Because somehow it always works out ๐Ÿ™‚

It is possible, but only if I’m willing to lose the battle to win the war

Good Afternoon Beautiful people,

I woke up excited today, with full of faith. I am thinking forward. Finally. I got the epiphany yesterday. After several phone calls of trying to negotiate to refund fees, lower bills etc, and not winning these battles, I lost perspective. I can fight for every injustice that is happening, but that is depleting my energy.

I had to move on, because my life goes on. Thereafter, I did the groceries and from there beautiful things happened, I got compensated exactly what I was asking for. So I lost a few battles, but I get it back from somewhere else ๐Ÿ™‚

Which means, anything is possible. there is perspective and it’s all okay. I can’t see it, but God can.

I don’t want to go in argument with people who are unreasonable. I want to win the war, that’s what I came for. This is a beautiful journey and God provides. With patience and faith, it can happen. Yes, that means that I will lose several battles, but if it means that at the end I will win the war, I’m willing to lose. Plus in willing to lose I got a release.

It’s okay, the system often backs up the injustice. But then there is humanity. Kind people who step out and make another system, where we don’t have to deal with the old system;)

There is a new day, with patience things do get rectified. I love my journey and the pace. I can smell the roses, see the beautiful hummingbirds, I can sleep well, I’m living in a nice and peaceful environment, it’s beautiful.

With love and kindness things can be turned around. With humbleness I win. It’s all okay.

God bless, have a great evening.


I can overpower the system, I am able to overcome this. In God I trust

A little bit what is left over from society is in my mother. I am so fed up. Honestly speaking I’ve already made it, this is a life long journey. I am not saying that my dad is the best, he certainly isn’t, but then again there is no such thing as a ‘perfect’ parent. I am grateful that my father is supporting me at this moment, I am enjoying the ride. I have worked, I know what it is, but God knows about efficiency.

I am sorry to say, but perhaps I will stay forever single, I am perfectly fine with that. I have a sister and great parents, only my mother doesn’t want to see that. I am grateful for what I have now. I am not questioning this journey, I am walking and have surrender to the will of God.

For so long I have already tried and pushed things, it was for the worse, I am done with that. I have faith and I trust. I am so over this doubt, this worry, what will happen and what if it doesn’t. That doesn’t exist in my world, the what ifs. I’ll cross the bridge when I get there.

I am 28 years and I am proud of myself for jumping before seeing the net. For making bold moves and still mastering my art, my skill. I am still learning. Still a student of life. I was a top student, topped everything, and for her it’s still not enough. Because she doesn’t see it. I am so done with that.

It will work, it’s already working. Everything what happens is to learn about life, to grow. It’s about growing. If people can’t see it, it’s none of my business. Absolutely none of my business.

This whole system, it’s okay. I don’t want to say, oh gosh, again a raise, or payments after payments. It’s okay, this is a world we’re living in. I am able to overcome this, I am able to go through this. I can overpower this system. Again, circumstance does not define me, I am who I am. I am still a happy girl.

This is just a worldly thing, this is peanuts, this is truly peanuts. I can go through this.

My whole life I had this anxiety, this push, either it was from those stupid girls in high school, numbers, relatives, who were saying when will I get there, or popularity conquest. and now my own mother. Last year it was the land lord.

I am done. Every time when I look back, I’m thinking, had I known this, I would have lived. So today I am starting to live. Live in faith, I trust. Because beautiful things happened.

I love my life. I can’t change the way my parents think, but I know that I love every bit of my journey, ever since I came to Los Angeles. I don’t care what people think, each day I am working on myself, on my own self worth.

I am worth it.

Thank you God for everything, with you I have confidence. I have confidence in the universe, I know it’s working and the power has been unleashed. Only time will tell.

In God I trust.